Sunday, August 31, 2008

vicky christina barcelona

as the intoxicating penelope cruz puts it, 
does christina have 'chronic dissatisfaction?'
or in the words of javier bardem (melt...) has she just yet to find what she's looking for?
and so she tries and tastes and loves until her head catches up to her heart
and with no regrets- she's on a new path
different- but carrying the last one with her to the next.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

My Blury eyes
Cloud the 20-20 vision 
I have of you
And there you go again
The dreamcatcher couldn't even catch you
Flying by
Like fast cars
Headlights make way to hindsight
And the if-only's
And the blue moon
Is the same one we swam under 
And it's pregnant at it's roundest
And I'm fine
Because it's silly to think you wouldn't follow me
Into my night sky.
i have yet to figure out appropriate roommate etiquette...
at what point in the oh-so wee hours of the morning does it become ok to say 
'shut the fuck up?'
or is it better to politely step out into the hallway, try to get your roommates attention, (who is at present preoccupied in a pillow fight with a nameless girl from adams morgan...) and ask if he could 'please turn down the music-'
i go with the latter, but really it's just  is just a euphemism for the former... in other words, i really asked you to shut the fuck up, i just happened to say the words 'can you turn it lower?'
but what does all that matter anyways on a sunday afternoon when you are too tired to leave your bedroom, and not because you went out in your new BCBG Paris heels, but because all that came out of your mouth last night was timid euphemism, three hours too late...

Monday, August 11, 2008

and just when i thought dc was small
he showed me this spot
looking over the potomac
like my spot in jersey looking over the bridge
where i go to think
cuz for some reason when cars look that small on the bridge 
they're really that small, for a few moments
and speaking of moments
we saw a shooting star
and i swear it came from no where
it just came
from talking about moments
we made it fall so we could remember that moment for a long time
and it was so peaceful
just two people
nothing more
nothing less
no yesterdays or tomorrows 
the only way to just be

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

hearts and clothes

why do so many people come in and out of your life so fast? 
it makes me want to lock myself in my room sometimes to guarantee a non-meeting of sorts...
because you know what happens- it's simple logic:
if you have love in your heart 
and you wear your heart on your sleeve, or as someone once said to me ('keep my screen door open') 
then the chances that some of your heart may end up on the sleeve of another? 
are high
and if they do end up on another's sleeve, then there's no getting it back
then again, i can't have it both ways because, as i started this blog off- aren't we all walking around this city looking for some intimacy? for someone to rub shoulders with and exchange pieces of your heart?

District of Connection

sometimes it's so small- a big town you might say...
'jewish geography' doesn't compare.

TO BE a woman OR NOT TO BE a woman?

shouldn't we start calling all young girls- 'little women?' lousia may alcott was on point and i propose we follow suit. because when exactly do we graduate form 'girlhood?' - the time old question i guess. 'coming-of-age,' adolescence, all these names for something that may not even exist. 
it's like twilight- the day's over, and you know it because the sun's setting but it's also too light for stars. but do those ambigous hours mean there's an actual time called 'twilight,' or is it just because we've named it and so we think it does? (ok, philosophical I know, but if you can follow that- continue reading...) because at 'the end of the day' its just 24 hours of clocks ticking, church bells ringing...
if 'little girls' were told from the start that they were 'women', we would put up with less crap- no more cat calls because i'm no little girl (no cat either, no 'snowflake- yes i got that one yesterday...) i'm a woman! the future mother of your children, so don't mess- at six, sixteen or sixty... 
i thought about this as michelle and i made friends with brianna- six years old with a neon green swimsuit at the pool on 14th and arkansas. holding her breath underwater, braids afloat, all  to show us how well she could swim. and then making circles around us to listen to our conversation? get our attention? get a glimpse into what it's like to be so grown? so womanly? well brianna- you don't have to make circles around us to figure all that out- you are your own best friend, role model, woman. don't take any crap form anyone because you are so beautiful in that neon green suit.

Monday, August 4, 2008

if you let it- this city can be so romantic. well i think summer nights are romantic anyway, and if you happen to be picnicking in meridian hill park at ten pm, your chances for romance increase-significantly. 
and if there is a blonde woman with a guitar singing joni mitchell? well then you know two little girls with blonde curls will be dancing to their mother's song.
and you will want to twirl with them- especially in that light- where the street-lamps hug the trees.
and maybe a familiar face will appear- and you will shake his hand because you have to- because he looks like someone you made breakfast for once-
eggs and toast, a walk to the beach where you dug your feet in the sand and listened to his story-
that was a long time ago, although you're not be that old- looking at these stars makes you feel wrinkled with age.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Pennies in a Fountain

What happens when you throw a penny in the fountain at Dupont Circle? I'm a whitness to teh facts- drunk man wades in fountain to collect coins.
So i'm sitting by the fountain listening to my soulful summer mix, reading the Style section of the Post. (Can you picture that? What a life I lead...) 
But the best thing about being there is my dinner date with Michelle- Udon Noodle Soup at Raku ($8) and because we're feeling extra cultured, we wander into Kramer Books- Of course I had t leave my Style section outside- tied up while I mingled inside the book store con Bloggers-with-Haircuts. But we didn't stay long- Post gets possessive over my attention span... 
something simple like the color of your son
or eyes, mine yellow, like fever high at none
heat "creep"s like tlc from above
who knew id be a "legend", days of fame and fun
like will smith alone in a city of one
"no more i love you's", annie said it best
swim through thick red syrup, clear white liquid, now rest
underwater, like ghost, invisible like hosts
of that virus. to think its just me under that suit
frontal lobe agrees, futile heart is ruth-
less, or ruth-more, either way this song's a toast
to maybe yes and maybe no- he loves me right, i love me most


'it's a girl'

(She will be your queen-
A Princess her daughter.)
Your spirit
Flows back and forth
up and down
in and out
as Her lungs rise and collapse
open and close
But what happens in that moment in between?
Before the collapse, after the rise-
Are you alone in this thought?
What matters now is to keep Breathing into those corners of Her earth
Although Her earth is corner-less
Her earth is a labyrinth
Of immortal mockingbird song
That move Her river's flow
What became of your love?
That hardening brown mud you dug up from the backyard-
You Plead! with time, to hold still- before it dries.
The world is bigger now than ever and it's rotation makes your head spin.
Catching up with time is possible only by counting Her rhythmic breath
Modest rhythm like Mount Sinai
A golden calf will never lead her astray.
She will be moved by the sky's treasure
She will sit atop the modest mountain conducting silver lightening with thundering strength.

http://www.dclibrary.org/dcpl/cwp/view.asp?a=11&q=569635

here is a link to my 'published' short story

The Survivor in Us All

I think that living on a budget- (which for some of us means flipping your apartment upside down for bus fare) is like getting in touch with survivor instincts-
it's too easy living off others (mom and dad?)
if we were meant to be parasites, we would have stayed five years old forever I guess...
I have graduated into animal-hood and joining the pack!

I'd crawl in a Hole, but They'd Follow...

I lie not when I tell you that on my walk back to the bus a man passed me dangling a dead rat-
not a mouse, (something I may have even sympathized for) no- a RAT...
The reason I was out and about so early to begin with was to feed my caffeine addiction, since I felt ostracized from my own kitchen and couldn't brew my own, the way I like it, for free, my flavor, the right amount of milk, no loud coffee orders being yelled about behind the bar- just me, my kitchen, my coffee...
what's up with tryst anyways- do people actually work there? or just stand around looking trendy? I know- it's been said before, but- I mean, really! I'm sitting at the bar for ten minutes before one of the nine thousand servers catch my fiery look of a stare and ask me what i want- two minutes later I'm wondering what it would cost to get a full cup of coffee. 

All in the Tribe

So I met my Jewish counterpart recently- I saw her last night, which was the second time we've ever met and people were telling us we were acting like best friends-
I get all 'planny' with people I'm excited about- like I know together we're powerful enough to take over the world and I just want to start- now!!
And some people can take my craziness for what it is- let the adrenaline runs it's course before I even out a bit-
And others? Well they freak I guess- did I mention this was mostly men?
You know- that other species that eats, breathes and does all the other actions to make it seem like they are part of the human race...

Me vs. Them

Talk about interactions in this city-
My first one of the morning consists of my usual exchange with them- a girly scream.
I guess this early it's like warming up your voice (for all the rest of the exchanges I will have with them throughout the day...)
They are quite the invasive ones- getting into my coffee pot- I give up at this point!
My roommate 'bombed' our kitchen but still makes me feel like I'm the crazy one, because- uhhh, i notice them? It's hard not to when you feel like you are sharing your kitchen with fifty other chefs,- well more like food critics; you cook, they eat what they like...

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Not everything is about sex...

Mich-In-The-City was inspired by the oh-so inspirational hit TV show, Sex and the City; taking two forces and chronicling their interactions. Sex as one force- the city as the other. Because aren't we all walking around this city yearning for sex? Well not sex per-say, but some kind of intimacy? Let's get one thing straight before we continue, I may be the first use the term 'the city' when referring to DC (and not NY) but I guess I'm a pioneer like that-
So I will dedicate this blog to all interactions noteworthy- all encounters that make this city- 'the city.'